Wow I can't believe I have been gone from this blog for 4 months. So much has happened both good and bad in those 4 months, but it is time to recommit myself to well me, and I want to take you along for the ride.
I sit here trying to think about what I should even say. Sometimes I laugh at my journey and sometimes I cry. As humans we sit and judge ourselves, you can look in a mirror and no matter how "perfect" you are according to society's standards you are bound to find something that you just do not like about yourself. It is human nature after all! I started my journey as a Beachbody coach about 2 years ago, and 12 pounds lighter then I am right now! I was looking back at my goal weight, my goal measurements, when I almost began to laugh. I thought I was "fat" and "out of shape" 2 years ago and 12 pounds heavier. Now I have to admit when I started The Shift Shop 2 weeks ago I hated myself, probably in every way. I was at my all time highest weight, I was depressed, tired, and just felt defeated. 142.6 I looked at that number over and over again, how can that be possible. A 94 pound young adult, already 3 kids down, heavier then I was the day I gave birth to my final child. I decided why not try this, make the shift, as Chris would say lol. So work out wise I jumped in, pushed and pushed. Missed 1 day, but I tried not to let that get me down. Eating was ehh, better then I was but not perfect. Then I started to FEEL the shift, FEEL the change. Not just in the way I felt, but the way I looked. 1 pound turn to 2, 3, 4, 5 and so on. Here we are day 1 of week 3. Speed 45 had me modifying more then I could have ever wanted :( but something else happened. I may have been modifying, but guess what I didn't die! Even better my heart rate, sweat levels, drive got stronger and stronger! Despite the fact that today and the next 6 days I will have no carbs lol I am looking FORWARD to tomorrow. Tears will pour out, and names may be called, But it is all part of the shift. Not to who I thought I wanted to be, but to who I SHOULD be. A stronger, fitter, happier me. someone who can walk with confidence and power because I know that I have done my best, and I am better then who I use to be!
So many things going on in my mind right now :) plans, dreams, hopes. I have to say I am truly amazed by what shifting your mindset can do. Today is the first day of the rest of my life it feels like, so much to plan and reach for. Do you have any goals you are reaching for?
I sit here trying to think about what I should even say. Sometimes I laugh at my journey and sometimes I cry. As humans we sit and judge ourselves, you can look in a mirror and no matter how "perfect" you are according to society's standards you are bound to find something that you just do not like about yourself. It is human nature after all! I started my journey as a Beachbody coach about 2 years ago, and 12 pounds lighter then I am right now! I was looking back at my goal weight, my goal measurements, when I almost began to laugh. I thought I was "fat" and "out of shape" 2 years ago and 12 pounds heavier. Now I have to admit when I started The Shift Shop 2 weeks ago I hated myself, probably in every way. I was at my all time highest weight, I was depressed, tired, and just felt defeated. 142.6 I looked at that number over and over again, how can that be possible. A 94 pound young adult, already 3 kids down, heavier then I was the day I gave birth to my final child. I decided why not try this, make the shift, as Chris would say lol. So work out wise I jumped in, pushed and pushed. Missed 1 day, but I tried not to let that get me down. Eating was ehh, better then I was but not perfect. Then I started to FEEL the shift, FEEL the change. Not just in the way I felt, but the way I looked. 1 pound turn to 2, 3, 4, 5 and so on. Here we are day 1 of week 3. Speed 45 had me modifying more then I could have ever wanted :( but something else happened. I may have been modifying, but guess what I didn't die! Even better my heart rate, sweat levels, drive got stronger and stronger! Despite the fact that today and the next 6 days I will have no carbs lol I am looking FORWARD to tomorrow. Tears will pour out, and names may be called, But it is all part of the shift. Not to who I thought I wanted to be, but to who I SHOULD be. A stronger, fitter, happier me. someone who can walk with confidence and power because I know that I have done my best, and I am better then who I use to be!
So many things going on in my mind right now :) plans, dreams, hopes. I have to say I am truly amazed by what shifting your mindset can do. Today is the first day of the rest of my life it feels like, so much to plan and reach for. Do you have any goals you are reaching for?
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